A New Year

2010

It looks to be a very big year for Mike and I.

One sure to be full of much joy and celebration. Now we wait with eager anticipation to meet our little one this coming August. I don't think August could get here any quicker!

I am going to be a nervous wreck until our next appointment, Jan. 6th which is also our 3rd anniversary ! Thank goodness it's not far away. I can't get it off my mind. I live in constant fear that something will go wrong. I am trying so hard to put all my trust in God! I am anxious, scared, excited and everything else in between. This appointment is special because it's the first one with our regular OB in Conway! Dr. Lawrence called the other day to congratulate us and made sure we had our appointment scheduled. Wasn't that nice!

We are praying for a stronger faster heartbeat and good growth!

Now FAITH is being sure of what we HOPE for and certain of what we do not see. Hebrews 11:1

I have only had 1 day that I have felt yucky!

So for the most part I have been feeling great. I almost wish I wasn't feeling so great so that my anxious mind could rest a little easier *remind me of this in a few weeks when my head is stuck neck deep in a toilet* HA

I got this cute dish towel for Christmas! I love it and can't wait for motherhood!

Baby Wilkins is already blessed with a few items he/she received this Christmas.

I would say "spoiled" but I am going to go with "blessed"!!

Here's a cute boy bib that says "I love my Aunt"

-gift from Aunt Morgan (aka Aunt Mo Mo) & Uncle Matt

Girl bib!

Baby Wilkins also got some cute little Razorback booties, a ducky onesie, gold spoon and a little shirt!

I wish you all a healthy and happy New Year!

Please say a little prayer for us as we approach our next appointment.

Can't wait to update you and show off some more ultrasound pictures.

God is so good!

Praise The Lord!!

Todays doctor visit went GREAT!!

I was SO nervous and excited all at the same time.

Dr. Batres walked in, did his little greeting and said "let's see what we have".

My heart was racing as he began the ultrasound and he quickly

said "Do you believe in miracles"? I quickly said back "Yes I do"!

So without further a do...... meet our miracle baby!

The heart was beating at 115 bpm!

Here you see the yolk sac inside. He said it was a little big but still normal with nothing to worry out.

We go back to the doctor January 6th (which is our 3rd Anniversary).

I am still feeling great! I have sore breast and very bloated but all is well!

Here's the whole story:

I took 5 days of Femara and 13 days of Bravelle injections.

I was monitored by ultrasound every other day starting on CD 11. After realizing that my eggs were not responding to the injections like they should and my estrogen level coming back low, (Tuesday Dec. 1) Dr. M called and cancelled our cycle and called Provera in for me to start my next cycle. I came home SO upset and angry. I had so many questions and emotions that night. How could this be happening? WHY? ect...

So after much discussion with Mike that night, I decided that I wasn't satisfied and I wanted to meet with Dr. B (our original Dr. who we never got to see this cycle due to the way it fell) . We met with him that Thursday. After a quick ultrasound with him, he quickly said "I have reason to believe you ovulated prematurely". So he checked my progesterone level and sure enough it was high... I HAD OVULATED and THERE STILL WAS HOPE!!

Now that was just a miracle in itself!

So now we were to wait 7-10 days to test since we really didn't know when I ovulated because I didn't do a trigger shot this time like usual.

I could of test on Friday, Dec. 11 but I thought it would be best to do it on the weekend when I was home. Well Saturday came and I was in LR shopping and picking up my SIL from the airport so needless to say I didn't test that day either. HA... So you think I might have been putting it off a little? HA

AH SUNDAY.... After a lovely Christmas party we came home and while Mike was napping I was testing! The result was immediate and I COULDN'T believe my eyes!!

I ran and woke Mike up and he couldn't believe his eyes either!!

We got pregnant the old fashion way... no artificial insemination or IVF!!!

WOO HOO

THE BEST FEELING IN THE WORLD!

Now we continue to pray for a healthy pregnancy, healthy baby and PRAISE God for this MIRACLE!!

A Christmas MIRACLE!

Merry Christmas!!!

WE ARE PREGNANT!!!!

(We were going to wait and announce but we just couldn't!!)

Mike and I are EXCITED to announce that we are expecting a miracle baby in August 2010!!!

We found out Sunday Dec. 13 at home. Monday morning we went straight to LR to have it confirmed. Our first beta Monday was 1568!!! We had it rechecked Wednesday and it was 3124!!! So we are definitely pregnant!!

I can't stop smiling!!

We are so thankful to God for this miracle, and the answer to our prayers.

We are so thankful for the prayers of others who have lifted us up during our struggle.

We are in total shock still and are SO excited about our journey into parenthood.

"For this child I have prayed, and the Lord has granted the desires of my heart" Samuel 1:27

Tis so sweet to trust in Jesus!

As of right now baby Wilkins is due to arrive August 20, 2010!

Today I am 5 weeks and 4 days pregnant.

We go Monday Dec. 28th for an ultrasound! Please say a HUGE prayer that all is well and that we see a heartbeat then... I will be 6 weeks and 3 days by then!

After Monday I will hopefully be able to rest better knowing that everything is okay.

So far I feel great!

We are just trusting in Lord as we sit and wait for Monday's wonderful news!

I will post the whole story after Monday!

Hope you all have a VERY Merry Christmas!!

For us this is by far the BEST Christmas EVER!!

Grow, Grow, Grow

Today is day 10 of the dreadful Bravelle injections.

My belly is sore and I am just plain tired... BUT... I must continue to move forward and trust and believe that this WILL all be worth it!

Friday's ultrasound reviled that the lower dose wasn't working for us. We were told to increase to a full vial each day and were seen again this past Sunday.

No such luck on Sunday either.... what was thought to be my lead follicle is now "petering out" as Dr. Miller called it and he thinks it is cystic. I did have a few follicles that were 10mm, so we did a few more days of the Bravelle in HIGH hopes of GROWTH!

He said if they can get to 15mm then we can trigger and follow with IUI 36hrs. later!

PRAYING HARD that we can!

I will be devastated if we have to cancel this cycle.

Here I am on Friday. Ready to receive good news!

I know you may think we are crazy for taking pictures in the exam room.

But they leave us NO choice when you sit there for 45 minutes with nothing but an ultrasound machine and speculums.!! HA

Our next appt. is tomorrow (Tuesday) morning.

Have a great week ya'll!

It's Beginning to Look a Lot Like Christmas!

And NO I haven't forgotten about Thanksgiving!HA

Here's a glimpse of what it looks like around the Wilkins' house these days!

I'm LOVING every minute of it!

I could do without some of the glitter...

I have vacuumed a THOUSAND times trying to suck it all up!

I love using deco mesh. It's so fun!

Yes, I already have a gift wrapped and under the tree! WOO HOO

I love laying on the couch at night drinking hot cocoa and eating peppermint bark!

This is what is sitting on the sofa table.

I put it together using the extra sparkle twigs I had left!

Christmas is in the kitchen too! HA

This is the breakfast nook.

The mantel has a few touches but for me it's ALL about the tree! HA

I added my Christmas accent plates to the china cabinet along with a few christmas ornaments for a special touch.

I am SO THANKFUL to have a wonderful family and special friends to share the holidays with. Thankful to have a comfortable home that I can come home to. Thankful to have a wonderful job that is so rewarding!

I feel very blessed.

Trusting & Believing

We know there are many of you out there praying for us and wondering how things are going.

We just want to say:

"THANK YOU! THANK YOU! THANK YOU for TRULY caring!"

There is not a day that goes by that someone doesn't call, text, email or stop me and ask how things are going or to tell me that they are thinking or praying for us.

So here's last cycles details:

I took 2 pills of Femara CD 3-7. CD 8 went in for an ultrasound and had 5, yes you read that right 5 eggs!! They ranged from 14mm-10mm. He had me do 2 Bravelle injections to help them mature CD 8 & 9. I went back in on CD 10 for a check.

They had grown with only 1 not being a mature size.

So I responded REALLY well to the medicine!

Now your thinking oh that's wonderful. Well... Yes and No.

Dr. Miller gave us 2 options:

1.) We either had to reduce 2 of the smallest eggs due to health risks because this chick can't carry 5 babies! Although I would love to think I could, with my size it is TOTALLY out of the question.

Followed by artificial insemination

OR

2.) Cancel the cycle because he didn't want to risk it.

After much discussion, option 1 was it. Now the egg reduction is like an egg retrieval. We were not really for this procedure but after our discussion, we decided that would allow us to continue with this cycle since we had a already paid for and taken the medicines to get this far.

So on CD 12 we went in and had an egg retrieval followed by artificial insemination. Everything went well with the procedures and the rest of the day was spent on the couch resting. Mike was on full maid service! HA

The two week wait was the HARDEST! One minute you think you are and your hopeful and the next minute your not!

You can thank the HCG trigger shot and hormones for that!

This past Friday we found out that the cycle failed. Our hopes were SO high with this one because I had responded so well and everything was looking positive.

BUT

God has a bigger and better plan for us!

So here we are....

Our doctors appt. today got our plans and meds. going for this coming cycle.

I will still do the Famara pills but the the dose of Bravelle injections will be halfed in hopes of no more than 3 eggs maturing!

Please say a BIG prayer that this cycle works and that this is His perfect timing!

I MUST trust Him completely with every part of me—even the parts that He has yet to create.

Tis The Season!

Sometimes we just need a little cheering up.... and boy does Christmas not do just that!

So with that said......

The Christmas tree and decorations will be making their debut this week!

Tis the season to be jolly! Fa la la la la la la

Aren't these trees fun? They would be so easy to make!

I love lime green and red together!

Our tree was done in this last year and will be this year too!

Love these stockings! Cute Cute!

Be on the look out for the finished product!