So Far... So Good

I hope I am not speaking too soon!

So far I have had no problems with any of my students!!

WOO HOO

I have some sweet students... Although I think in the near future some of them might start testing the waters.. so far all is good!

I have been SO exhausted the past few days. It is difficult to get back in the swing of things.

The couch has been calling my name after school these days! HA

Right now I think I am in survival mode but I feel that each day things get a little easier!

I love my husbands comment to all of my tiredness... "Well hunny, I don't know why your tired... all you do is color all day!".... HAHA

Let me tell you. If he came and worked with me just ONE day... he would be praising me and saying "I don't know how you do it"!

I love my job! It is SO rewarding and wouldn't want to be anywhere else!

I'm still Here

Okay... So obviously I haven't blogged lately. Shame on me.... I am still alive but just haven't had much to say. I have had so many thoughts and feelings but decided to leave all of it between Mike and I instead of venting and sharing my thoughts with you all.... don't get me wrong I love ya'll but I needed my husband.

As you all know last week was the worst week ever... BUT.... I am still determined... maybe MORE determined than ever!!

This past week has had it's ups and downs. When I thought I couldn't cry another tear or thought I was doing better... it would start all over again. I am taking it one day at a time and though I may look happy on the outside, I am still hurting on the inside.

We are still in need of your thoughts and prayers.

So your probably wondering... "what's our next step"?

Well, Yesterday we had an appt. to check my HCG level and to speak with our doctor. Since my level has gone down to 3.9, we can start trying again. THANK YOU LORD!!!! We go back Saturday morning for an ultrasound to check for a maturing follicle. Here's where I need your prayers... Please pray that I am ovulating this month so we can continue on with this cycle.

On another note.... SCHOOL BEGINS TOMORROW!!! I am still in shock that it is here already.

Where.... oh....where did summer go?

I had a great turn out at Open House tonight. I've got me some cutie pies too! I am praying for a FABULOUS year and wishing all of you teachers out there the best of luck!

Thank you again for following our blog and praying for us during this trying time.

The Good...The Bad...and The Ugly

Mike and I are in need of your thoughts and prayers, please!

Our hearts are hurting more than ever right now.

A week ago Friday our doctor had us take a home pregnancy test. We did and I shared with you all that the test was negative. I stopped the Prometrium as directed and waited to start. The following Thursday I had not started and called the doctor. They had us come in for a blood test to see what was going on. That afternoon we received the most exciting news....

we were pregnant!

My HCG level was 337 and she said it should be around 50.

Our prayers were finally answered.

She scheduled us to come in this morning for another HCG test just to make sure that my levels were rising and for an ultrasound. The ultrasound showed nothing going on in my ovaries and my uterus had a very small black shadow, which he said could be the sack.

The nurse called around 1:30 with the lab results.

Keep in mind that I started professional development today.

So I jumped up from my seat and ran to my room to answer the call. She said with a not so happy voice that my HCG level had dropped to 44 and it should have been around 1200.

I LOST IT! We had a chemical pregnancy.

I immediately called Mike with the news. He came to the school and got me because I just couldn't face going back into a room full of teachers with the news I just received. A good teacher friend of mine came in to check on me while I waited on Mike and we just sat and cried. I had her share the news with everyone after Mike and I left. The teachers ended up having a prayer for us. I work with an AMAZING group of teachers.

I so badly wish I was sharing better news right now.

On the positive side of things... at least we know that we CAN get pregnant! It is just SO upsetting and disappointing how this happened. I am trying SO hard to be positive about things. Quiet frankly I am an emotional mess right now. I have cried so much and then when I think I am done it starts all over again. I wasn't going to blog until later but I think it's best just to announce it now and get it out of the way.

God is still oh so good.

Praise be to God!!

We will let you know very soon why we think God is SO good!